Yesterday I went to blog and I totally forgot my password. Now that I remembered I am back. I love blogging because it gives me a sense of freedom. Freedom to say what I am thinking about weight and eating and food, and anything really. So here I go.....
I am almost at the end of my heart health program. Two more appointments and I am only in touch by email or phone. I like the fact that someone will call with the motivation to see how I am doing. To be honest, the program really did not help me. I went I guess expecting information, helpful hints, for them the professionals to give me tools and the methods to arm me for this challenging battle. Although, I think to myself.... grow up Vickie, no matter what they said, did or didn't do, if you want to change then you would.
I do desire so much to be at a desirable weight. I hate feeling overwhelmed with myself. Feeling as if I am losing out on so much because I am held back by my lack of energy and stamina. I hate going places. I hate eating out at restaurants. I hate having to look in the mall and see the racks filled with sizes way to small for me in abundance, and 1 or 2 stores that are my size but cost a fortune to buy. Yes, I know, it takes more material for us big girls than the small ones but for some reason it doesn't seem right. In those famous words of Charlie Brown Uuugghh!
Alright, I have totally vented, now back to reality. I have hard work to do. Am I going to give us ----- Yes....well...no! I can't for
the sake of myself, the Lord, and my family. I have this desire for a reason, and I can't ignore it. I can't give up. ....Here goes a song verse memory ---- what is that song that says "to give up I'd be a fool....OH! lamb of God--- I would be a fool.
This week has been to me a time of Jericho. Things in my heart that I have finally come to a conclusion that God has already knocked them down. I decided in my prayer time, that I was going to not believe any longer the lies that I tell my self planted by the enemy or low self esteem. I am a child of the living God and I am a new creation in Christ. Not what I think or feel about myself. I have challenges, eating and exercise challenges but those things are not me. They are the things that sustain me, but they are not me. If you think about it, everything we do here, is to either sustain us or grow us. Anything of the flesh I believe is to sustain us till that final day when the Lord meets us in the air. The growing part is anything we do to feed our soul and heart.
I hope that in any small part this is an encouragement to you. I hope that you will like me get on your knees and rest in Him (Yeshua - Jesus) and believe truth instead of the things that are told us. We are His, He chose us from the foundations of this world and that to me says that I am wanted, I am purposed and I am just who He wanted. So with that encouragement, I will check back next week to a another week of victory whether small or big, 1 or 10 steps forward or in my case .1 or 1 pound lighter.
